Sunday, October 03, 2010

slowing it down

People who know me, know I love change. So what I am feeling now is new, and oddly unsettling. I am actually hoping, wishing, that things would slow down, and not change so fast. Our son is growing so rapidly, and maturing at a pace that scares me. I can see him getting ready to be on his own, and I am not ready yet. I am taking my last class for school, and I just finished my forms for graduation in May. I really don't want it to be over. I see us aging, and I'm not ready for that yet either.

The biggest thing is that I am happy, really and truly happy. And I don't want that to change. I'd like to gather up everything and hold it, just as it is, for a long long time.

2 comments:

Kitten Herder said...

The tighter you try try to grip something, the more quickly it will flow through your fingers. Relax and enjoy what IS. Rest assured that what WILL BE will bring its own challenges (of course) as well as unexpected rewards.

Congratulations on being 'happy'. Remember, nothing is permanent.

changejunkie said...

Don't worry -- I'm not actually trying to stop time, or stop change. I just am trying to find a way to savor it all before it shifts and changes.