as part of my new routine, I meditate every morning when I wake up. I have done this for 3 weeks now. It doesn't matter if I want to. It doesn't matter if I am so tired I can hardly stay awake. What matters is committing to a discipline. I have lots of routines in my life, but that is not the same thing. My routines are things I do without thought. Meditation is a conscious decision.
some mornings, it is the last thing I want to do. But I get up, and I do it. And no, I don't always magically feel better for having done it.
I am trusting that there is value in the discipline itself.