Sunday, May 12, 2013

of all the things I've done

I am a feminist. I have worked for a paycheck since I was 15. I have 3 degrees. And yet, when I think about it, the two best things I have ever done are marry my husband, and have my son. Today is Mother's Day, and I am thinking back on how lucky I have been, and how much that role has meant to me and my life.

It's ironic though, that the things that have felt, deep in my being, the absolute rightest are really right out of the conservative playbook. Wife and Mother. Come to think of it, I enjoy being barefoot, too. And I can whip up a pretty nice meal.

I am glad that I didn't have to choose one hat over the other. I am glad that I could be myself, with interesting and challenging work, could keep my mind satisfied with education, and still be a wife and mother. I would have missed so much if I couldn't work and go to school. And I would have missed so much if I couldn't have married and had a child.

I will probably never dream of programming, or building a new accounting system. But sometimes, I do dream I am back in that rocking chair, in the still of the night, rocking my baby in my arms.




4 comments:

Sue said...

Oh honey, you said exactly what I would have said if I had been eloquent enough to think of the words...

changejunkie said...

I got to spend some lovely time yesterday holding an 8 week old baby. It brought back such strong emotions. And I had forgotten how perfectly right it feels to hold a baby.

Sue said...

Uh oh, pretty soon you'll be pestering Mike for grandkids! :-)

changejunkie said...

I can wait. Barely.